Heartless… with a groovy ending

So, first and probably only electrolysis session was an absolute bust. I get to this awful office, that has water stains on the ceiling, and rusty fixtures, get half naked and get on the table. She puts the “numbing” agent on and just starts going to town stabbing and shocking my hair follicles, which of course is absolutely awful. So I am crying and jump a little, and she snaps at me the first time. “I cant do this unless you are absolutely still. Are you going to be able to handle this?” So i say yes, and just hold totally still, am still crying of course. After about 10 minutes I tell her I need a minute. “Well this just isn’t going to work, you being like this makes it so hard for me. I cant do this, you are going to have to figure something else out. Get dressed and meet me at the front desk and i will check you out.” and she left. Thankfully she didn’t charge me for the full hour. I spent the next two hours trying to get to [alt-text alt=”Rich”]Daddy[/alt-text]’s and crying on and off the whole time. When i got there, Shimmer was home but had to run out, so i laid on the couch and cried myself to sleep. Then cried on and off the rest of the night. It was an all around awful belittling experience. I would not every recommend this person to anybody. … Continue reading Heartless… with a groovy ending

Randomness and Support

Still no word from the surgeon’s office, It is not feeling as ominous now that i have spoken with some Post-Op women, though it is still frustrating not having a set date. I got super frustrated this morning at [alt-text alt=”Rich”]Daddy[/alt-text], he called me and brought up my uncertainty at the lack of date, which… Continue reading Randomness and Support

Approved!

The letters are in! My insurance company have determined that my bottom surgery is “Medically Necessary” which means the days my penis have left on this world are numbered! This is extremely exciting, I have been working my butt off all year trying to make this happen, and it is becoming very real all of… Continue reading Approved!

Moving Forward…

Lots has happened! Finally did my consultation for my surgery, it was a little less exciting then i expected, all my questions were answered, and a man fondled me while to others watched, talk about bizarre. I have decided that i am going to go with Doctor Loren Schechter and go with the penile inversion procedure…. Continue reading Moving Forward…

The Last Goodbye…

I bought this journal with the intention of documenting the year leading up to my gender reassignment surgery. Though i prefer a computer blog style journal the physical paper journal stands the test of time. (This was originally from my journal) This weekend was an absolute roller coaster or emotions, excitement, and heartbreak. I am… Continue reading The Last Goodbye…