So, first and probably only electrolysis session was an absolute bust. I get to this awful office, that has water stains on the ceiling, and rusty fixtures, get half naked and get on the table. She puts the “numbing” agent on and just starts going to town stabbing and shocking my hair follicles, which of course is absolutely awful. So I am crying and jump a little, and she snaps at me the first time. “I cant do this unless you are absolutely still. Are you going to be able to handle this?” So i say yes, and just hold totally still, am still crying of course. After about 10 minutes I tell her I need a minute. “Well this just isn’t going to work, you being like this makes it so hard for me. I cant do this, you are going to have to figure something else out. Get dressed and meet me at the front desk and i will check you out.” and she left. Thankfully she didn’t charge me for the full hour. I spent the next two hours trying to get to [alt-text alt=”Rich”]Daddy[/alt-text]’s and crying on and off the whole time. When i got there, Shimmer was home but had to run out, so i laid on the couch and cried myself to sleep. Then cried on and off the rest of the night. It was an all around awful belittling experience. I would not every recommend this person to anybody. … Continue reading Heartless… with a groovy ending
Still no word from the surgeon’s office, It is not feeling as ominous now that i have spoken with some Post-Op women, though it is still frustrating not having a set date. I got super frustrated this morning at [alt-text alt=”Rich”]Daddy[/alt-text], he called me and brought up my uncertainty at the lack of date, which… Continue reading Randomness and Support
I am to the point now that i really want to take my diet and exercise routine to the next level, but have kind of hit a plateau, i have already decided that the push i am looking for is going to have to wait until after i am healed from my surgery, as i… Continue reading A Better Me!
Life has been fucking with my head lately, I don’t even know where to start. With surgery looming over me, I have been unable to make any plans as i still have no idea when the surgery is going to be. I am assuming it will be this year, or at least I am hoping… Continue reading Depression and Such
The letters are in! My insurance company have determined that my bottom surgery is “Medically Necessary” which means the days my penis have left on this world are numbered! This is extremely exciting, I have been working my butt off all year trying to make this happen, and it is becoming very real all of… Continue reading Approved!
Lots has happened! Finally did my consultation for my surgery, it was a little less exciting then i expected, all my questions were answered, and a man fondled me while to others watched, talk about bizarre. I have decided that i am going to go with Doctor Loren Schechter and go with the penile inversion procedure…. Continue reading Moving Forward…
I finally did it… again… for the ten million and twenty second time i have quit nicotine. Every time I do this i say “This time is different” and it never is, but this time is different. With my surgery on the horizon, smoking is really no longer on the table. Smoking prior to or… Continue reading Effing Quitters…
I bought this journal with the intention of documenting the year leading up to my gender reassignment surgery. Though i prefer a computer blog style journal the physical paper journal stands the test of time. (This was originally from my journal) This weekend was an absolute roller coaster or emotions, excitement, and heartbreak. I am… Continue reading The Last Goodbye…
Well holy crap i have not posted anything in 2+ years! Lets get on with this shit, I am drunk as could be. I am starting a new tradition, start the year off sober and ready to rock and roll, like an adult… I guess. Then get drunk as heck! Wooo new year. In reality,… Continue reading Fuck Nuggets 2018
Sometimes life throws you some curve-balls. When it comes down to it you are either the person who ducks, or the one who catches it with their face… I am the latter of the two. Shit is kinda crazy in my life right now, on top of my transition physically, I am going through a… Continue reading Like a Chimney!